Live alone. Die alone. Live and die for something greater. I have for a long time believed that everyone is innately alone. You live your life and only your life. The act of being exists only within you. This to many can be something that seems hindering, or depressing, and though it may be in some ways, I find this thought extremely liberating. This basically states that I am in control of myself and all the chances to be happy and/or sad exist with me, not those around me.
I have always been able to flip a switch and shift my mood from happy to sad. Usually it just takes a little bit of reasoning in my head, and I am able to overcome it all. Not really as easy as it sounds right there, but the basic gist. I realize that whatever reason I have for not being happy is either meaningless and/or not helping me in my day to day, so are able to deal with it, or cut it off. Logical ( I think at least) reasoning at its most harsh. I have cut off countless people from my life, because when trying to step back and look at the relationship I realize it was totally fucked.
I know who matters to me, and which relationships I cherish. Those people are always in my thoughts and I am so appreciative of their friendships/relationships. The others are usually a combination of similar interests, and/or just taxing emotions. Basically driven by gut emotions and as John Cusack said best in ‘High Fidelity’ “One thing I have realized is that my guts have shit for brains.” Emotion is a complete disaster and I realize, though healthy to have, they often are the opposite of what you need.
Most people think I am a callous asshole, and most people are probably right. Somehow emotional detachment comes easy, but with how the world is today, I don’t find that too surprising. Regardless of what other people think, I know where I am and what I am doing, and try to be as true to myself and those that truly care for me as I can. This post is about the friends worth fighting for. The ones that make me a better person for knowing them. You do not go unnoticed.










